Monday, September 28, 2009 @ 7:28 PM
What’s the use of being here on earth if everyhting is just too cruel to live?
My heart is throbbing ever so badly.
I need to be alone. Absolute silence & peace.
I just wish god could send me to a deep slumber for at least a week or so.
Sakinah has lost hope, faith and love.
There is no such thing on earth called hope.
I’ve given up on it.
No matter how much I tried it just pulls me down,
Like how gravity keeps everyone + everything from floating into space.
Hopeless sakinah.
I just wish time could stop.
I wanna be alone.
Alone from everyone. I need to be alone. I just … just need some privacy.
Peace and quiet, a friend to talk to who would understand the scrocing pain I’m going through.
Why cant my life be perfect or merely perfect like others?
What have I done to suffer all of this.
My parents.. yes my parents.
They.. they don’t know me, they don’t know that I’m this sensitive girl who cries about almost everyhting. That I’m mentally disturbed, emotionally unstable and that I’m facing a grief of depression.
I need to get out of this place of misery and despair, this place where some people call home, whereas I call hell. And over all this sadness I have to live with a “dreadful” family which is just making everything worst.
Faith, If’s there’s no hope, surely faith doesn’t exist. It’s just a matter of time till I start to pour my heart out. Love.
Right now at this moment I’m only loving god and half of myself.
I hate myself, no I don’t. Low self esteem.
Now I am going to sleep.
Bye
Monday, September 28, 2009 @ 7:28 PM
What’s the use of being here on earth if everyhting is just too cruel to live?
My heart is throbbing ever so badly.
I need to be alone. Absolute silence & peace.
I just wish god could send me to a deep slumber for at least a week or so.
Sakinah has lost hope, faith and love.
There is no such thing on earth called hope.
I’ve given up on it.
No matter how much I tried it just pulls me down,
Like how gravity keeps everyone + everything from floating into space.
Hopeless sakinah.
I just wish time could stop.
I wanna be alone.
Alone from everyone. I need to be alone. I just … just need some privacy.
Peace and quiet, a friend to talk to who would understand the scrocing pain I’m going through.
Why cant my life be perfect or merely perfect like others?
What have I done to suffer all of this.
My parents.. yes my parents.
They.. they don’t know me, they don’t know that I’m this sensitive girl who cries about almost everyhting. That I’m mentally disturbed, emotionally unstable and that I’m facing a grief of depression.
I need to get out of this place of misery and despair, this place where some people call home, whereas I call hell. And over all this sadness I have to live with a “dreadful” family which is just making everything worst.
Faith, If’s there’s no hope, surely faith doesn’t exist. It’s just a matter of time till I start to pour my heart out. Love.
Right now at this moment I’m only loving god and half of myself.
I hate myself, no I don’t. Low self esteem.
Now I am going to sleep.
Bye
